A Break in the Silence

I was having a particularly hard time this week. I'm not sure what the particular reason was, but I was longing, I mean longing, to talk to Mason. I know I can talk to him but when I do, I end up feeling worse because he doesn't talk back. The silence makes his absence from my life here even more evident. One night during my regular before-sleep conversation with God, with a heavy heart, I asked Him, please, if Mason was right there with Him, if possible, could He let Mas know that I still love him and I still miss him and I can not wait to be with him again... and I knew it was kind of crazy but I would be so thankful if He allowed Mason, to somehow, just let me know that he still loves me, too. I didn't look for or wait for an answer. God, as He so faithfully has done throughout this journey, provided me with peace and rest. The next afternoon I received a package from UPS. I couldn't imagine what it was because we weren't expecting anything. I opened the package carefully, wondering what my not-so-good anymore mind had forgotten was coming, and there it was, the answer to my prayer. The art print that I had seen on our vacation in the mountains for Jenny's birthday, that reminded me so much of Mason, was now in my hands. You can see it here - http://www.yoderart.com/OnaLedge.html. The print was sent to me by the girl who I babysat, along with her brothers, twenty-some years ago. She read my blog, did the research, found the print I mentioned and had it sent to me. I was completely blown away. I still am. I'm not sure I'll ever fully recover. It is definitely one of the kindest, most considerate and over the top things anyone has ever done for me and I haven't even seen her in at least ten years. Thank you, God, for listening and using Betsy. Thank you, Bets, for listening, too, and being willing. You facilitated a momentary break in the silence. The message wasn't audible to my ears but was heard clearly in my heart. "I love you, too, Mama, so much, and I'm on a ledge - hanging out for you."